Monday, April 29, 2013

Walk With Me

It only took nearly 10 months, but go with me as I walk through the local area of my suburb in Melbourne. See what I see and hear what I hear on a daily basis as I walk to just about anywhere. =] Better late than never!! =] Disclaimer: The video is about 18 minutes, so you will need some time before you sit down to watch it. I do encourage you to watch it though, because this has been my life for the past 10 months and it will really help you to get a feel, picture, idea of what things are like when I talk with you about my environment, adventures, etc. 

Take Note:
1 - Every time a gate/fence changes, that is a new house/yard/property
2 - Addresses on each new street start over at 1
3 - All the cars parked on the side of the street, it's done everywhere here.

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Which Is Worse?

So... I have been homesick before in this journey, but being so close to going home for a quick visit before returning to Australia... I'm discovering a new kind of homesickness...

When I first arrived I was okay for a few weeks just due to being overwhelmed with all the newness and amazingness. After that it was just every now and then that I would miss home. At about 3 months was when the real homesickness kicked in. I missed my mom and cat the most of all. I had a lot of emotions locked inside when all I wanted to do was cry. I often cried over Skype with mom or on the phone with her. I cried when the time differences didn't match up and I couldn't call her when that was all I wanted. Sometimes I cried at night when I had no one to say goodnight to or in the morning when I knew when I got out of bed there would be no good morning hugs or kitty cuddles. I cried when I just wanted my own, quiet space. I cried when Hope turned 10 and I wasn't there. I cried when my niece Lilliana was born and I wasn't there. I cried when our downstairs flooded and the house was a mess and I wasn't there. I cried on Christmas morning when everyone was around the tree and I wasn't there. I cried when my little sister turned 18 and I wasn't there. You get the point... I was missing events and milestones back home and I just wanted nothing more than to be there. It wasn't as often as it sounds, but it was often enough. And it wasn't so much crying as it was quietly choking as tears silently slid down my cheeks. I couldn't cry like I really wanted to and just let it all out because then my host family would hear me. 3 months was hard because I've gone this long without home, without my family, without my kitty, without my friends and I was proud of myself for making it this long, but the problem was that there was still 7 months ahead of me where I had to continue going without all those things/people. That's over double the amount of time I'd already done!! There was no light at the end of the tunnel. The end of the tunnel was too far away for me to see anything. Now, don't get me wrong, God blessed me with an outstanding church here filled with generous, loving people who have been there for me from since before I even came over here who since day 1 of being here have opened their homes to me, fed me, provided hugs, love, sweet texts, prayer, encouragement, support, etc. You name it, they've taken care of it (with God's help). I wouldn't have made it throughout those toughest times and months without God's strength and promises and their support, love, and encouragement.

After the 3-4 month mark or so, things started to smooth over. I had become really really settled in life here in Melbourne - church, friends, friends that have become like family, work, driving, public transport, etc etc. I had big holidays ahead of me like Phillip Island and Sydney and plans for another holiday later on (which turned out to be New Zealand). There were times when I would go close to a week without Skyping my mom, although I did call her at least once somewhere during that time. I stopped taking pictures of the area, because none of it was new anymore. It was typical, normal. I was used to it. The "crying" came way way way less often to the point I couldn't remember when the last time was. All was good.

Before I knew it though I was down to just a little over a month left before my visit home and that is when I discovered this new kind of homesickness... Rather than the end of the tunnel being too far away, the end of the tunnel is darn close!! I can see the light brighter than ever but like one of those awful dreams no matter how hard or fast I try to run I creep and crawl through the days like a snail. Hugging my ma, kissing my kitty, squeezing the daylights out of my Hopie, being ridiculous with my 2nd family, sleepovers with friends, lunch dates with other friends, childhood games with another friend, seeing all of my extended family, etc etc it is all within arms reach, it is so very very close, but yet... I can't have it. Not for another x amount of days. But just like a two year old... I WANT IT AND I WANT IT NOW!!! I've waited long enough for it and I don't want to have to wait any longer!!! I have Skyped and called my mom and family more in the past 2 weeks than I have during any given period of time that I've been here. Just one thought of my Munkie or the time I'm going to spend with Hopie or seeing friends for the first time in a long time can instantly bring tears to the edge. Every day I wake up I'm eager to count the days and tear another link off my countdown chain. Every day I'm eager to plan one more get together or confirm one more plan with family and friends back home. Every day I think about packing and then remember I still need clothes and all the other things I would pack. Every day I try to think of ways to make the days pass more quickly. Every day I thank God for everyone who is waiting for me back home and that I am one day closer to their hugs.

Unlike the original homesickness though, this is a very weird, mixed feelings kind of homesickness. I cry because visiting home is so close and I just want to be there more than anything my heart has every wanted before. I smile and have an amazing attitude because I know home is so so so very close and I only have to make it through x amount of days. Then while all of this is going on, I can't help but think about the people here in Australia. The people that I text with, talk with, hang out with every day who support me, encourage me, and pray for me on a daily basis. I can't help but think about my church - Compass. The one that I can't wait to go to every Sunday and is sometimes what gets me through the week. I can't help but think about "my" kids. The kids who are a huge part of my daily life as we make each other smile and giggle, as I tuck them in every night, as I get to witness their milestones and new discoveries. I'm going home to visit with people that I love dearly which makes me happy, but I can't deny the fact that I will miss the people here while I'm away. In a way, I'm glad I'm taking this visit in the middle of my stay, because it is a very small taste of what leaving in December will feel like... And then I start thinking about once I come back December will only be 6 months away and I fear that time in this amazing country with these wonderful people will fly by. So, while I'm thrilled about coming home for a visit, there is a piece of me that dreads having to give up this time with the people here who before I know it will no longer be a part of my daily life. I am so glad that this is just a visit home, because I'm not ready to be done in Australia (someone remind me I said this when June 10th comes and I have to say good-bye to home again). Like I said - a new, weird kind of homesickness.

Regardless of any of this homesick business... By the time I leave to visit home I will have been in Australia for 10 months!!! Before I left for Australia I couldn't make it away from home for longer than 3 weeks!! This is the longest amount of time I have spent and (God willing) will ever spend away from home and I can honestly say that I am beyond proud of myself. This has to be the most challenging, most daring, most unlike me thing I have ever done in my life and I made it the full 10 months (not to mention the additional 6 after I come back)!!! If this time last year someone would have told me I'd spend this long in another country away from everyone and everything I know and love back home I would have laughed hysterically, which is probably why God waited until Novemberish to tell me. Sometimes when I think about it I can't believe I've actually been here for 10 solid months and I can't help but smile at my achievement (kind of like when I watch my skydiving and bungy/swing videos). I've relied on Skype, phone calls, Compass, and my family/friends here... but most of all I've relied on God more than I ever have before. And I've learned that when you do that... Beautiful, wonderful, amazing things happen. And as I've said from the beginning, I wouldn't want to take this journey with anyone else.

HOME!!!

Monday, April 22, 2013

White Night - Art and Lights

This was the first year Melbourne hosted a White Night festival. White Night is an all-night arts festival celebrating food, art, film, music, and light. It started in Saint Petersburg, Russia where during the weeks around the summer solstice, the nights are literally white/bright because of its latitudinal location. Other large cities have followed suit such as Paris, Tel Aviv, Italy, Britain, Montreal, Toronto, Chicago (2007, the first one of its kind in the US), and more. Around 300,000 people attended Melbourne's White Night on February 23rd/24th.

I arrived in the city a little before 7:00p to see the Federation Bells ring. This was one of the locations I came across in my Mali Hunt and said that I would one day go back to hear them ring, so I did. Afterwards, shortly after 7p I made my way back towards Federation Square to see how the Zumba was going and oh boy was it going. I dropped my bag in a corner between the stage and speaker within eyesight, kicked off my flip flops (BIG mistake), and jumped right into the front row. I Zumbad in Fed Square with who knows how many other people for an entire hour, full out, barefoot on bumpy, jagged cement. At the end of the night/morning I will come to find a blister the size and shape of a quarter with a dime next to it. And once all the hype of the night/morning dies down I will come to find that that blister makes my entire foot feel like it is on fire and is practically impossible to walk on. It was soooo worth it though!!



After Zumba I met up with a friend of mine (Steffen, the one I did the mud run with quite a few months back). Luckily, he just so happened to be inside the building I was standing outside of, because otherwise, we probably would have never found each other in the masses. Once we met and I explained my sweaty appearance and limp (Zumba) we went to an interactive laser display in St. Paul's Cathedral, except, there were too many people doing it and not even using it in the way it was intended so we left and planned to come back to it. We saw some of the illuminated projections on the different buildings, which was pretty cool.
Why I wouldn't have been able to find Steffen


We saw these two french women living in this itty bitty apartment, which was weird... the kind of weird that forces you to watch. However, during this performance I noticed a group of people next to me SIGNING!!! I watched for a minute just to be sure that that is what was going on and then I tapped the shoulder of the guy next to me. I asked the guy if he was Deaf and he said yes and then asked if I was. I explained that I wasn't but that I studied sign language and Deaf culture at uni. We chatted for quite some time about what I was doing in Australia, where I was from, Melbourne's Deaf community, some book stores, a friend of his who is from the States, etc. He showed me the sign for Melbourne and Sydney. He introduced me to his friends and explained how I knew sign, where I was from, etc. We talked about some signs that are different between ASL and Auslan (Australian Sign Language). Luckily he knew the ASL alphabet because when we got stuck in understanding each other's signs we were able to fingerspell. This experience was really cool for me because I haven't used sign language to talk with anyone since I left for Australia, when before that I was using it almost every day. I have also never signed with someone from another country who was Deaf. I was shocked at how much I still remembered and the fact that we were able to understand each other since I have had little to no practice on my receptive and expressive skills since May. It was really cool too that this knowledge, this language, allowed me to communicate with a group of people I wouldn't otherwise have been able to communicate with (without typing on my phone or writing it down).

Afterwards Steffen and I watched a mime and marionette show. We watched people misuse a projection art installment by just making random shadows on the wall rather than following the directions. We talked with the artist a bit about this and her feelings on it. We watched some random film in an alley. We saw our image projected onto a wall in another alley and then manipulated. We saw some lit, lantern like shoes hanging over another alley. We went and stood at the intersection of Collins St. and St. Kilda Road on a raised step to get a better perspective of the crowd and couldn't believe what we were seeing. You couldn't tell who was coming or going and they had to have traffic control cops there to gather the people after each street crossing so the cars could go. They weren't expecting this many people or this kind of crowd, so they hadn't closed Collins Street which is one of the main streets through the city (St. Kilda Road was closed because several of the art exhibitions were on that street). Afterwards we went and got dinner at Hungry Jacks (10:30p). The line was to the door at both registers and this is one looooong fast food restaurant. We ate outside on the dirty, gross steps of some building (it may have been a church). We watched the stage at Flinders Street Station from the steps while we ate.
Security blocking people from crossing
Let the masses cross!
Flinders Street Railway Station
We worked our way through the crowd back to Federation Square where the dancing was taking place (11:00p). Steffen and I participated in some kind of dancing that I don't remember and then we did bollywood dancing. Afterwards we continued moving through the crowds as we headed towards the river for Melbourne's largest ever water and laser show. We watched it once through, not in the greatest spot, and Steffen wanted to watch it again. At this time was when my friend from church, Julia, met up with us, so we all decided to sit and watch it again from better seats. (11:30p). The patterns and images they could create with shoots of water and colored lights was quite mesmerizing. It reminded me a lot of the fireworks, laser, and music display on Australia Day in Sydney.
Hundreds of disco balls over Fed Square for dancing





Afterwards we headed across the Princes Bridge (after about 15 minutes of standing around waiting for Steffan's friend who turned out to actually be on the bridge down at the other end of the river) to the other side of the Yarra River (Southbank area). She met up with us by the river where we took in the projections on the Princes Bridge, the light up "White Night" letters, the multi-colored lights on a bridge further down, the ridiculousness of these people trying to ride a bike that went right when turned left and vice versa, and the nice messages on these giant, inflatable, illuminated balls on the river. Then we walked over the Sandridge Bridge back to the other side of the Yarra River. On our way back to the center of the festival we ran into a bag pipe playing Cookie Monster. We went down into the subway to see an instrument that was interactive and made out of recycled pieces, but when we got there it was pretty much packed away and the artist was nowhere to be seen, so we left.




We worked our way into the crowd in front of Flinders Street Station to watch and listen to the The Cat Empire (2:10am), a band I had never heard of, but Julia and Steffen were pretty keen, so we went. Unfortunately, when you get a crowd of this size together the idiots will show themselves. As we were standing there, completely squashed and stuck in place a couple people started climbing the light and signal poles across the way on the other side of the crowd. Well those idiots got down and then another idiot decided to climb the pole right next to where we were standing. If that wasn't bad enough he then stood on top of the pole. And if THAT wasn't bad enough, he then jumped, sending a hard, heavy gray cover flying down and hitting me right in the face. Since I couldn't move in any direction I instantly went down to the ground covering my head in protection because I didn't know what else was coming down and if he was coming down. In the process I lost my glasses, which I picked up just before Julia pulled me up along with another girl/woman who then plowed through the crowd as I screamed and cried. Above my eye hurt and my nose hurt like crazy. I couldn't see, because I didn't have my glasses on and was crying, but thought the worst about my nose - broken. They got me through the crowd in no time, which was quite a feat with how tightly packed everyone was. Once we were back on the sidewalk and semi-out of the crowd, the woman asked if she thought we could make it to the First Aid tent on our own and pointed in its direction. Julia and Steffen said we could, so she went back into the crowd. The screaming was making my nose and head hurt more, so I stopped even though it hurt and I was still in a bit of shock and confusion, although I should have kept going because it took a lot longer to get through the crowd without it.

We got to the First Aid tent and they sat me down and asked me general questions and the doctor said it wasn't broken, but she could definitely see some swelling and bruising beginning. Then one of the emergency guys asked me for my ID so I went to get it out of my wallet, couldn't find it, so I looked again (there was a lot of stuff in there), couldn't find it. I started dumping out the contents of my purse, Julia helping me. When it was official that it wasn't there... I felt like I was going to vomit. 300,000 people and I'm supposed to find one individual wallet?! Everything was in there - ID, cash, credit and bank cards, membership cards, etc etc. It wouldn't have mattered quite so much had I not been in a "foreign" (Australia isn't really foreign, but it isn't home either) country where getting all those things replaced would have been MUCH harder. I had to stop for a minute and think logically though about where it was. When we saw the Cookie Monster I took my wallet out to donate and then I know I put it back in, so it had to have fallen out when I went to the ground after that thing hit me in the face. Julia offered to stay with me and Steffen and his friend offered to go back into the crowd to look for it. I'm so thankful Julia was there with me doing her best to keep me calm and focused and put things in perspective. The emergency guy came to ask for my information but I couldn't give it to him because I was for sure if I opened my mouth I was going to vomit. I called my mom for a quick second however to tell her to pray (in addition to my already and continuing praying). I sat there what seemed like forever and then Steffen and his friend came walking up, no wallet in hand, I couldn't believe it. I asked as though it didn't matter though to try and maintain my cool - "No luck?". Their response? "The police have it. The lady who helped us out of the crowd went back to her spot behind where we were standing and saw it on the ground and picked it up and gave it to security." I thanked God (literally) and gave Steffen a huge hug and thanked him and his friend for braving the crowd once more for me. I was so relieved. I had a big gulp of water from the tent, gave them my info, sat for a bit longer with the ice on my nose and then decided I was ready to go get my wallet.
Bruise and bump on nose (I got out very good considering) and can't really tell in the picture, but there is a scratch above my left eye
We walked down to the police station, which was just around the corner really, and waited for quite some time as person after person passed us not asking us anything about why we were sitting here or if we needed help or anything. Finally, a large group of them walk out and after the 4 of us exchanged glances and small chuckles at the disbelief that every single one of them was going to walk by without saying anything, at the last minute one of them turned around and said are you the one who lost a wallet. I said, "Yeah, it's purple", and she handed it over. No questions about identity or anything, just, "Here you go". I opened it and nothing was missing, not even any of the cash. I seriously couldn't believe it though that out of all the people that would be standing behind us among a crowd of 300,000 it would be someone so amazing that would brave the crowd twice (4 times if you count returning to her spot) for someone they didn't even know. However, in church we'd been talking about how God answers prayers and how when we pray He moves and I couldn't help but think that this was God showing me that when I pray He listens, He cares, He moves, and things happen. I was just talking to my mom a couple days prior about this and how I didn't know if He was preparing me for an opportunity to see Him answer prayers or what and my mom said that she had actually been praying that an opportunity such as that would arise. So in the end, it was all pretty cool, and I could see God in the entire situation. Once the police and security people left, the 4 of us burst out laughing at how ridiculous the whole event at the police station was. We then headed back out into the crowd to watch the last 20 minutes or so of The Cat Empire. We had much more space this time and were just a bit further back and away from anything anyone could stand and jump on.

Afterwards Steffen's friend headed home and while Steffen and I had every intention of continuing, Julia was possibly thinking about heading home as well, but decided to stick it out with us. We did this thing where you sit in a box on a cart and someone pushes you down the street and it messes with the way you perceive things and kind of turns the streets into a movie. Throughout the night we also kept running into Uptown Brown who is a one man band that was really cool to listen to. Afterwards we went back to Federation Square so Julia and I could learn and do the Thriller (4am), which was absolutely hilarious. Then we went into the Australian Centre for the Moving Image (ACMI) and I did a screen test as Hermione.






Next we went back downstairs to something called, "A Moment". It was a blue and brown painted, nest like, caravan with fairy lights, cushy carpet, a small table, and a teal type writer inside. When it's your turn you are given an iPod and a set of earbuds. There is a quiet voice of a young girl on the other end. She spoke a little bit about herself and who she wants to be when she grows up. There was soft music in the background. Once that finished you climbed into the caravan. The little girl then instructs you when you are ready to use the typewriter and type whatever you'd like. Before moving to use the typewriter I took note of what was on the walls... hundreds of little typewriter written notes pinned to the wall. The walls and ceiling were covered with notes of previous participants' letters to themselves - "Let them say what they want, you know where your worth is and how much you matter", "You're only 19 and you've already ruined your life for yourself", "You're 8, when you're 20 you want to be a zoologist", "Life is short and you're too thin. Don't let their words be the end of you. You are a marvelous being.", "You've done it! With hard work you have reached your goal!", "You are loved.", etc etc. Note after note after note, some inspirational, some heart breaking, some innocent, some cryptic, the list goes on. It was a surreal feeling sitting there in the middle of the streets of Melbourne reading all of these immensely personal notes of other people who had sat right where I was. I decided it was time to get to typing my own. What to type though... If I could say anything to myself what would it be? What would I want someone sitting in here to read? Should it be about my past, present, or future? How personal am I willing to be with something so private and yet so public? I typed what I had to say, held on to it for a moment, and after reading a few more notes, found a space and pinned it to the wall - Wondering who would come after me and read this? Will this help someone unknown? What will be done with this note to myself when all this is said and done? I sat there for a moment longer continuing to read the notes - I could have sat there and read all night - until I decided I had probably been in there long enough and should let other people have this experience. When I climbed out of the caravan there was a tiny rolled up piece of paper with a little string tied around it resting on my shoes that said, "dear me, be brave, walk slow. value small things but dont forget the big stuff. be wise. believe in people. xxaMoment" It was written with the same paper and type writer as in the caravan. I slipped on my shoes and unfortunately, just like that, the moment was over - back to the busy streets and noise of Melbourne. However, when I think back to that moment I often grow quiet and still as it was a special, intimate, personal moment that I can't explain in words.




Afterwards we all headed back down Flinders Street towards St. Paul's Cathedral to see if the exhibition in there was any better with less people and turns out it is way cool!! The lasers coming from above respond to your movement. If you stick your arm/leg in the light path it goes around it. If you move your arm in and out it bounces as it avoids your body. With other people doing it as well, it's cool to see how your movement alters their movements and what images or patterns you guys can create together without even speaking. As we were leaving we walked past a small hill of grass outside the cathedral and the sight was just so strange considering we were in the middle of the city - people just passed out in the grass. We then headed back down St. Kilda Road towards the projection installation we were at earlier where we spoke with the artist because no one was following the instructions. Turns out, this too, was a fantastic art piece when used appropriately. The projection instructs you to stand in a specific spot so your silhouette is then projected. A girl from the audience got up and stood there. As she stands there this story unfolds around her and she is the story. A lion that walks on 2 legs fell in love with her and gave her a rose. She rode in a boat. She was taken up on a ladder into some foreign flying thing. She was in the newspaper. She stood in that one spot the whole time - only moving her arms and torso really and yet she was able to tell a whole story. You could tell she had been sucked into it. Almost like she had forgotten she was doing this in front of a large crowd in the middle of Melbourne. The crowd as well was enveloped by the story - looking past the girl standing there and connecting with the silhouette on the wall. We spoke with the artist again telling her how glad we were that they figured out a way to make sure it was done properly and how brilliant and entrancing it was. She was so thankful for our comments.


Now it was time to figure out how to get home. Steffen swore the bus was coming to Collins Street, but Julia was pretty sure it was down St. Kilda Road. I was taking a tram so I didn't care where the bus was. Rather than sticking to his gut, Steffen went with Julia and I to the St. Kilda stop. On our way there we saw a fraction of the trash produced by the night and got to see the sunrise behind the trees over the river. We saw the White Night sign again, but this time it had been drawn on by the artist. We waited at the bus stop for awhile and it turns out the bus was coming on Collins Street, but it was too late so we had to wait for a tram. As we stood there we got to watch all the trams come in for their day at work and just decided to get on a tram to Caulfield train station. Julia would drive me home from there and Steffen would take a bus. By this time I believe it was around 6am. That tram trip was by far the most bizarre, most hilarious trip I will probably ever take on a tram.


The Melbourne sky turning blue again
By this time all 3 of us had gone absolutely sleep happy. I'm pretty sure everyone there either thought we were on something or we were completely wasted. You could tell who was on the tram just starting their day and who was on the tram from White Night. There was a guy in some crazy white costume that I vaguely remember. There was an older gentleman in the seats next to us and we ended up helping him name his charity foundation/organization. All 3 of us were talking absolute nonsense about anything and everything and couldn't stop laughing about nothing. We got off the tram and parted ways and Julia and I could hardly walk straight anymore. I had completely forgotten about all public/social rules and etiquette, was no longer controlling the volume of my voice, still laughing about nothing, and we shouted hello and waved at some workers in the parking lot across the street. We got in the car and couldn't find seatbelts or remember where certain buttons and things were. Once we got situated there she headed to my house. We danced like lazy lunatics until she got to my house. Honestly, it probably wasn't safe that she was driving and/or that I was in the car with her, but the roads were so empty that it didn't matter. By this time it was around 7:00am (I think).

I got inside and my host family was awake. Michelle was very confused at why I was just walking in the door and my host parents were shocked that I actually made it for the entire night. I told them a few of the main stories and attractions, looked at and uploaded a few pictures, then showered and got ready for church. That's right... By this point I had been up for over 24 hours and I was still going to church. I didn't care how tired I was, but my days at Compass Church are limited and I'm not missing one simply because I chose to be ridiculous and stay out ALL night. At this point, I actually wasn't tired. I was feeling quite good actually. Louise picked me up for church (because my host parents said I couldn't drive, fair enough). Worship was good, but I had to fight so so so very hard to stay awake during the sermon. I had lunch with my Aussie family (Nikki, Louise, and their parents - Joan and Ian). Towards the end of lunch I was instructed to go take a nap because apparently I was falling asleep at the table. By the time I had laid down I had been a little over 30 hours without sleep and I was knocked out in no time.

Regardless of the mishaps with the stupid guy, the sore nose, the lost wallet, the missed bus. Regardless of the blisters on my feet the size of my thumb that put me in so much pain by the following day (Monday) that it felt like my foot was on fire. Regardless of the pure exhaustion throughout Sunday. White Night was one heck of an experience from beginning to end and I would do it all over again in a heartbeat!! Unfortunately I won't be here for the next one as I will be back home by then, but these memories of being out in the streets of Melbourne from sun down to sun up with 300,000 people experiencing and appreciating art in so many different ways, with 2 good friends... will definitely be a story I tell for a long long time. =]
Sunset
Sunrise

Sunday, April 14, 2013

NZ - God Incidence, Not Coincidence

From the very beginning God had His hands all over my New Zealand trip although it took me a little bit to realize it. 

1st God Incidence -
I was originally planning to spend that 10 days in Tasmania (another state in Australia), but couldn't find anyone to go with me and all the tours there are pretty crap. I finally found someone, but it was a guy who I didn't know from the facebook au pair site. I was seriously considering going with him, to the point of planning and making budgets together, because I was just that desperate to go. We both tried finding other people to join us, but nobody was able to go at the time we would need to go. My host parents, my friends here, my parents back home, everyone was saying not to go with this guy. I know it wouldn't have been the smartest or safest idea, but again, I was just that desperate to go because I didn't want to waste the 10 days off. I had decided that if more people didn't join I would probably cancel on the guy. I figured if I was supposed to go God would make a way and maybe this was His way of saying, "Don't go". I was teetering between going and not going when I mentioned to Georgina one Sunday what was going on and she mentioned me holding off on Tasmania and going with her later in the year (she's from Tassie). That sounded way more appealing than going with a random guy and with everyone's "seriously don't do this" input, I decided to take her up on it, cancel with the guy, and started back at square 1 for this 10 day holiday. While I was in a time crunch for last minute planning, budgeting, and booking which meant lots of late nights and long days it all came together so smoothly because from the beginning God had already planned for me to go to New Zealand and boy am I glad I have Him as my travel agent, because it turned out to be the holiday of a lifetime!! =D And now I have plans to see Tasmania with a beautiful friend rather than some random, strange guy!! ;)

2nd God Incidence - 
When I arrived at the airport in New Zealand I was standing at a bus stop that I had a feeling was the wrong one but had no way of knowing and my phone wasn't working to call anyone to find out. I decided to walk back into the airport and ask to use a phone there and on my way I saw the correct bus stop with my shuttle waiting for me.

3rd God Incidence -
I was sitting at another bus stop in Christchurch in 6C/42F weather and I was so thankful that at the last minute I decided I should probably pack a thicker, warmer jacket. I don't know what I would have done without it for an hour and a half in that cold.

4th God Incidence -
The Lucky 13!! My amazing, wonderful, loving, hilarious, fun, forever friends I made on my bus almost instantly. I was so busy praying about safety and weather for my trip that I completely forgot to pray about making friends, not feeling lonely, and having someone to experience this adventure with. However, God being the best travel agent there is out there already had it all arranged and ready for me. I don't know of any other travel agents in the world that can organize a trip for you where you will be guaranteed to make life long friends who you will share these amazing memories with. ;)

5th God Incidence -
Another awesome thing about traveling with God is that He has power over the weather. My first few days there were cloudy and a bit drizzly, but not enough to ruin our activities (except for the reflection of the mountain in Lake Matheson, but I got to see the Mirror Lakes later on, which was just as amazing, so we'll call that God Incidence #5.5). My 4 days in Queenstown where all the activities are outside and require brilliant weather, I had just that - blue skies, little to no wind, warm, and sunshine. I got to do every activity planned and experience it to its greatest potential. The staff at the bungy jumping, sky diving, and Milford Sound all commented on how the weather could not be more perfect for the activity. The weather turned a bit again at Mt. Cook, but again didn't ruin the activity. And went perfect again for Rangitata so I could go horse riding. Now, God could have made all the days have blue skies, sun, no rain, etc etc, but that may have seemed a bit suspicious, plus without the clouds we would have sweated to puddles on the glacier (we were sweating even with the cloud cover) and without the rain we wouldn't have had waterfalls to enjoy or running streams for the horses to walk through. It all has its place and purpose. =]

Oh! And God Incidence #5.75 - All of the glacier hikes after mine was over were cancelled for the rest of the day due to forecasted rain. 

6th God Incidence -
I had planned to skydive while in Franz Josef, but decided to do the glacier hike instead. Had I chosen to skydive there I would have missed out on skydiving because they canceled them for the day due to weather and I would have missed out on the glacier hike because they were all full and/or canceled also due to weather. Then I planned to SkyDive in Wanaka, but decided to go with my friends to Puzzle World instead. Had I chosen to skydive there I would have missed out on skydiving because it was canceled due to rain and I would have missed out on Puzzle World with my friends as well. Then I planned to skydive in Queenstown and well... you know how perfect that ended up being!!! =D

7th God Incidence - 
I bought a cheap, fleece, zip up, light teal and gray sweatshirt from a store on the way to Milford Sound that said something New Zealand related in the top left corner. On the way to Milford Sound I found a hole in it and initially I was upset but then just decided I'd have someone sew it up for me. After the cruise, back on the bus, the driver said we'd be going back to that same store. I took the jacket in for an exchange, but they didn't have another one in that size, so I just asked for a refund. I wasn't upset, because I figured another opportunity to buy something like this will surely pop up. On my last day, at the airport, I went into a store that caught my eye because they sold nice looking New Zealand clothing (not the cheap, touristy stuff). In the back right corner I found, you better believe it, a bright teal and gray hoodie that had New Zealand stuff in the middle and in the inside of the hood. Now, this sweatshirt was by no means cheap like the other one - it cost 4 times as much, but, there was no hole in it, the material was thick and much higher quality, and was way cuter. Also, rather than just having the brand name and the word New Zealand in the upper right hand corner, the graphic on this sweatshirt incorporates words and pictures that point to icons of New Zealand and New Zealands culture. It says Aotearoa, which is the Maori (New Zealand natives) name for New Zealand. It also says New Zealand at the bottom. It has a picture of Mt. Cook/Aoraki which is New Zealand's highest mountain and I walked a valley at the base of it. There is a picture of the Southern Cross which is a constellation that can be seen easily from the southern hemisphere and is on New Zealand's and Australia's flags. And of course they incorporated the silver fern, which is endemic to New Zealand and probably one of the most well known icons. 
You're probably thinking, "Really? It's just a sweatshirt..." The thing is though, God cares about anything and everything that matters to us, even the small stuff, like hoodies. =] He knows how careful I am with my money, how much thought goes into every purchase I make, and how often I cheat myself out of nice things because I'm afraid I won't be able to afford it later should some crazy bill come in or something like that (hence why I originally purchased the cheap, crap jacket to start with). He also knows how much I LOVE a good sweatshirt and how the entire time I was on my trip I was constantly looking for something that reminded me of New Zealand but didn't shove it in your face in a flashy touristy way. Clearly He knew something better was waiting for me at the end of my trip and I wasn't meant to purchase the other one, so He made sure I could return it, because had I not been able to return it, I never would have bought the nicer one. Call it what you want, but I call it a God Incidence!!! <3

There was another God Incidence that I unfortunately can't write about because it would spoil something for someone later on down the road, but let's just say it took some effort on my part, but couldn't have been possible without Him. And there was one other God Incidence that took place the morning right before I went skydiving, but I also can't write about just because it is a tad bit more personal and might be a bit TMI for public knowledge. ;) If you are super curious and really really want to know either of these two, just message or text me and I'll gladly share with you (As long as you aren't the person mentioned in the first unmentioned one ;)!!! 

Anyways, I've said all this to say that from the time I was 10 years old and possibly before that God was already putting my Australia plans to work. Who knows when He began these New Zealand plans, but I am so glad He did! He has been with me in Australia and He certainly came along for the trip to New Zealand as well. I love knowing that He has all my days, my entire future, in His hands. He is an amazing travel agent and a fabulous travel buddy. And as I've said before, I wouldn't want to be on this journey with anyone other  than Him!!! <3

NZ - Memories of the Lucky 13

The Lucky 13
- Hayley
---checking on me the night I was too exhausted to move
---first to introduce herself when I sat in the back of the bus
- Sophie
---the look we could give each other that would take the place of an entire conversation
- Matt
---the first to talk to me on the Stray bus
---encouraged me to sit in the back
- Calvin
---Hobbs
---smoker's laugh
---"interesting night"
- Lewis
---always laughing at/with Max
- Max
---his accent
---cooking and eating dinner together
---chai latte
- Poppy
---her name will always be said with an accent
- Dan
---quick remarks and comebacks
- Dan (Essex)
---deep conversation into the night
---vine swing... sorta
- Jim
---hug after the Canadian boys left
---riding up bank while luging
- Lea
---checking on me constantly my first night out with them
- Jeanet
---no one could say her name right

Moments/Quotes
- The boys bought a massive box of calendars for $2 and handed one out to everyone on the bus
- Matheson Lake (camera and vine)
- Interesting Night
- Longest Welsh Train Station - Llanfairpwllgwyngyll
- Singing "Living On a Prayer" at karaoke night with the Stray bus
- Max: "I knew that?" (regarding Lewis not getting off at Christchurch)
- Max: "I don't know a Penny!!... Amy! Oh Amy! She was a nice girl!" (regarding misreading a signed name on his flag that I had to figure out for him)
- Dan: "It's his fault for packing a table"... "He shouldn't have packed a box" (regarding me using the random's suitcase as a rest for my laptop)
- Calvin: "I was like a dog chasing a tire and once I got the tire I didn't know what to do with it"
- Hayley: "Max, how do you spell your name?"
- Sophie: "Nikki, that's what happens when you do too much crap in one day!" (regarding me falling down the stairs)
- Hayley: "Nikki, you should be glad you're in our group. We don't let just anyone in. Other people have tried to get in and we wouldn't let them."

Songs
- I Love It
- Wonderwall
- With or Without You
- Call on Me
- Living On a Prayer


NZ - Rangitata and Gone

On the way to Rangitata we were all scrambling to get pictures of Mt. Cook from the bus window. We stopped to get more pictures of Lake Pukaki and we also stopped for pictures of one of NZ's other blue lakes, Lake Tekapo. Although it was only the 7 of us left, we still had a really good time together on the bus - although, since we were all exhausted we did spend an exceptional amount of time sleeping compared to other bus rides. At another stop on our way to Rangitata we came across a market and met a 2 year old English Mastiff named Teddy. This dog is massive!! His paws are as big as my hands and I could practically ride him as though he was a small horse. When one of the guys asked if he could run fast, the owner laughed and said, "Ha! Teddy doesn't get anywhere fast!". The dog is still considered a puppy and while won't get much taller he will get wider. We also found out that the dog is what they call a canine friend, meaning he is a therapy dog and goes to nursing homes and the cancer ward of the children's hospitals and sits with them while they get chemo.









Unfortunately we had to leave Teddy to go do a supermarket shop to make it to Rangitata on time. I signed up for horse riding as my activity for while in Rangitata so they dropped us off there on the way to the cabin and the farm/horse owners would drop us off at the cabin when we were finished. Burt (an old, experienced guy) gathered us all as we introduced ourselves and chatted a bit. He then asked about each of our past riding experience (there were 6 or 7 of us from the bus that did this). I told him that my family used to ride on vacation, just for pleasure, and that growing up I had a friend who owned horses and rode with her quite a few times, but also just for pleasure. We then changed out of our shoes into appropriate horse riding shoes (shoes with a bit of a heel is all), got our helmets, and got assigned our horses. I was given Debie. I went over and introduced myself to her and gave her some love rubs/pats. Then we grouped together again for a quick run down on the basics before heading back to our horses and leading them out of their "stalls".



Debie was really good at following directions when I was walking in front of her holding the reins. I got on and we struggled a bit at first to communicate. She wanted very clear, specific instructions (as most horses do) which my brain wasn't quite prepared for from being so tired. It was also hard because 2 of the riders were quite experienced, I was somewhere in the middle, and the rest didn't know what they were doing. Debie I think could sense a bit of the confusion happening as the 3 or 4 who didn't know what they were doing would randomly stop and go and change direction, which made it hard for me to keep Debie moving. Once we had a few minutes on our own Patience (younger, but also very experienced) had us all go single file in a circle, change direction, then stop. Once Burt and Precious saw we could all do this we went on to the trail.

The very start to the trail is an extreme downhill and rocks. I felt bad for Debie, but she handled it like a champ. Once we got down the hill and through the trees it opened up to a bit of green, open land with mountains in the distance and trees on the edges of the land. Once everyone was back together we headed into the woods on the trail. The trail was ever changing from grass to rocks to dirt to mud to rivers and streams. Above us was just a canopy of trees that you could just see the blue sky peeking through. Debie was a bit of a priss when it came to the mud and rivers/streams. She would stop at them like she was checking if I was really going to make her go through it. Once she realized I was serious about it she went on through and did it well. One time, however, in trying to avoid the mud and water she did scrape me along some very sharp tree branches. I finally got her to move over even though I don't think she was too happy about that. I shared with her though in this dislike of mud and water because I was in one of my nicest/newest pairs of jeans and one of my newest t-shirts. I figured trail riding meant some flat, dry path through trees, not all this crazy awesomeness, so I wasn't really dressed for it.




At some point we reached a break off point where those who could run went off and those who couldn't stayed there and hung out and ate wild (safe) berries. The two from the group that were pretty experienced went and because I was somewhere in the middle and seemed confident Burt hooked me up to a lead that Patience would hold and my horse would just run/canter behind hers. I had the best of both worlds really because I got to have the fun of running/cantering without any of the hard work of steering or controlling. I was so glad that Burt let me do this. We went around a huge loop twice, so probably about 10-15 minutes of running/cantering total. There is just something about being on a horse, running through the trees, wind blowing your hair, the sound and smell of the leather saddle, the sound of their hooves hitting the ground... what a stress reliever (if I had had any)!!! Riding in general brought back lots and lots of really good childhood memories. However, I knew after about 4 seconds of running/cantering that I was going to be seriously sore for the next couple of days, and boy was I ever!!

Once we met back up with the rest of the group Burt gave us some wild berries as well and when I went to give Debie some love pats... She was so very disgustingly sweaty, but I gave her more love pats anyways because carrying me, let alone running with me on your back, is hard work and she did well!! We continued on through the trail and what happened next was straight out of a movie or some fairy tale storybook. We were walking through a shallow stream with trees on either side. There was a small break in the trees coming up on the right and I was just thinking how much I hoped Debie would stay focused and straight. As we passed the break she turned her head and then I turned mine and saw what she was looking at - 2 horses, smaller than the ones we were riding, no tack, one white and one dark brown standing side by side on the bank of the river/stream among the thick trees had just lifted their heads from having a drink from the river/stream. They just stood there and looked at us as we passed and Debie just kept on going. I couldn't believe what I had just seen. That is a picture that will stay with me forever.

At some point Patience and the two experienced riders took off so they could canter and gallop the rest of the way. The rest of us took it slow except for a trot every now and then to keep up. Once we got back to the open area Burt told us the best way to get the horses up the hill is to get them cantering so he had me go first hoping the other horses would follow suit. Debie listened very well and took off strong and made it all the way up the hill. I made sure to give her a lot of love once we reached the top because I couldn't have done that myself let alone with someone on my back. I didn't have to steer her back to her "stall" she knew right where to go. Poor thing was exhausted. Burt took a couple of photos of me with Debie, I gave her some love, and then I changed out of the shoes and helmet to get ready to leave. We said good-bye to our horses, the dog, Burt, and Patience and then this other lady (mid-late 40s) piled us all into her SUV and drove us to our accommodation.



I made sure to tell her how much I absolutely loved the experience - the guides (Burt and Patience) were friendly and personable, the trail was beautiful and adventurous with the mud and rivers/streams, their ability to cater to different riding levels was much appreciated, and their horses are well trained and sweet. When I asked where these horses are when they aren't in their "stalls" waiting to be ridden she said they are out and about where we just rode, just hanging out in the streams and woods, living the life of a horse in the wild (which is why we saw those other two horses, they belong to the farm as well). On the way to our accommodation we saw more... you guessed it... Sheep!!

The accommodation was a cabin lodge nestled off the road among the trees. When I got there I went onto the bus and got my carry-on stuff off and went to the reception desk. I was hoping and praying that my friends had followed through with the plan and requested a bed for me in one of their rooms. Luckily, the did, and I noticed a couple unfamiliar names on the list as well. There were 9 names on this list... which meant there were 9 beds in this room. I wasn't too thrilled about that because the biggest hostel room I'd ever been in was 6, however it did mean that our whole group of 7 got to be in the same room. When she told me there were no keys for the doors I couldn't help but think what kind of place is this?! Surprisingly though I wasn't all that worried about my stuff, I had just never heard of a place without keys for the rooms. And the strangeness doesn't stop there...

I walked into the room and it was empty, which meant everyone must be out doing something together (turns out they went on a run.... so glad I decided to go horse riding because I would not have been up for a run). I wasn't greeted with people, but I was greeted with 3 sets of bunk beds. I know what you're thinking, "But you said there were 9 beds"... Well, 9 beds divided by 3 sets of bunk beds means each set was 3 beds high and because I was last in the room... I was on a top top bed. Luckily though I was above Poppy and Dan and not the two randoms, because that would have been weird. Also, this room with 9 people in it was by far the smallest room I've been in on this entire trip. The most number of people and the smallest room, that makes sense. Needless to say, bags and things were everywhere! Once I got my bag off the bus and got situated I went and checked out the bathrooms. There were 2 toilets and one shower curtain, but again no lock on the main door. And again I thought, what kind of place is this? I went into my room to try and situate my things and heard a girl say, "Oh really?! Then I'm going to shower now!" Our room was the first one by the lounge, so I could hear most of the conversations taking place. I figured this was her figuring out there was only one shower and that's why she went right then. I decided I was going to go after her because all the rafting people (the other activity option) would be back shortly and I wanted to beat the line. I gave it about 10-15 minutes and this is where the weirdness continues.


I walked into the bathroom and the girl from earlier kind of flinched and I realized she was wrapped in her towel and getting dressed. Because there is no lock on the door you never know who is going to walk in (more so the concern is that a guy would walk in). I said something along the lines of asking her if she was trying to beat the rafters to the shower and she said something along the lines of yes, but also just because it's a shared shower. I said, "What?". She said, "Yeah, there's three shower heads in one room. It's like pool showers all over again". I pulled back the shower curtain and what do you know... there it is... 3 shower heads, one shower. I have never had to be so strategic about a shower before - how to get undressed, shower, and redressed before anyone could come in and/or how to do all this should someone come in. I won't go into the nitty gritty details, but let's just say I was successful. Nobody bombarded on my shower and about 5 minutes after I left the bathroom all the rafters and my friends returned.

We all talked about the bunk beds, the showers, their run, and my horse riding. We competed at Fruit Ninja on the iPad and got ready for dinner. Max had bought a lot of food for dinner at the supermarket stop so he offered to share it with me so I offered to help him cook it (because we all know how handy I am in the kitchen... NOT!). For dinner Max and I made a meat and tomato sauce with onions and mushrooms to put on top of our penne pasta. I boiled the pasta and chopped the mushrooms and onions. This was the closest I had been to a home cooked meal in 9 days and I thought it was delicious!! Max kept apologizing for it and putting it down, but I made sure to continue telling him how yum I thought it was. After dinner Max and I chatted for a bit and then Lewis joined the conversation. At some point everyone ended up outside to play cards, but we never did. I watched bits and pieces of the movie that was playing between walking back to the room to work on sorting pictures and things on my laptop. At some point everyone was back in the room and we chatted and chatted and laughed and laughed some more until at some point we decided it was time to sleep. I said my last good-night to the friends I'd come to know and love in just a matter of days.

In the morning we had breakfast and for the last time I claimed our seats and loaded my things onto the bus. I was pretty quiet and not really myself and my friends were aware. I was trying extremely hard not to think about what I would be doing in just a couple of hours. We all slept for a lot of the drive to Christchurch. We did stop at a cafe though where Max changed my life forever (just kidding, but it was pretty darn close). When he got back on the bus he asked me if I wanted a drink of whatever he had. I told him I didn't like tea or coffee. He asked me if I liked vanilla, I said yeah. He asked if I liked cinnamon and I said yeah. Then he said okay so you have to try this. After a bit more debating I finally gave in and took a sip... and then another. And about 10 minutes later another and another. =] It was a chai latte and it was sooooo yum!!

As we neared the airport Ricky (the driver) said that we should all start saying our good-byes to those we were leaving us and while my friends turned to me to begin, I couldn't look at them. I just kept staring out the window fighting back the tears in my eyes with everything I had. I got off the bus and they all followed. I immediately started crying. With each hug and good-bye more tears fell. I told them each how much I loved them and loved that they were part of this adventure for me, how much I'll miss them, I thanked them for the memories I now have, and wished them well in their travels. All the kind words were returned back to me by each of them along with more hugs and a few tears from some of them. I finally managed for the last time to turn away from these new, amazing friends of mine and walk alone to the airport.

I had wiped my face dry before walking in only to find that the check in counter didn't open until 1 (it was only 9:30 now). I wanted to cry. I just wanted to sit in a comfy seat (found at the gates, which requires checking in first) with an outlet and be productive. Instead I had to sit in a hard, plastic, small chair at a counter/table... but at least there was an outlet and at least I was productive. I also called my mom and dad and talked with them for quite awhile about my trip. Before it was time to check in I packed up and went to one of the shops to purchase some touristy/souveniory items and then I got lunch. I went downstairs to check in only to find out that check in opened at 1 for people going to the Gold Coast... the Melbourne check in didn't open until 5:45. Back upstairs I went and sat in the uncomfortable chair for awhile and then decided I deserved a muffin so I went to a cafe nearby up there and got a muffin and went to sit on the comfy seat in the corner only to be surprised and delighted at the outlet located right next to it!! You better believe I sat there until 5:45.

Got through check in with no problems - I was concerned about the weight of my luggage. I went back upstairs and a store called Global Culture, which sold nice New Zealand clothing, caught my attention. I went in and found a really cool bright teal and gray sweatshirt that said New Zealand on it (note the similarity to the jacket bought in Milford Sound). It was expensive, but good quality and very cute, so I splurged. Next I went to the area where they do immigration to get to the gate and there was a sign there saying those doors won't open until 7:15. I can't explain to you my frustration at this moment. I sat in a hard metal chair, pulled out my laptop for the millionth time and watched some tv to ease the frustration. Close to 7:15 I moved towards the door and waited for the doors to open. I went through quickly with no problems, bought a cup of fruit (and got a free cookie) when I got to the gate, then continued sorting and uploading my photos. While sitting at the gate I took note of the beautiful good-bye sunset New Zealand displayed for me. :) Then I boarded the plane to find a little kid in my window seat and his mom in the middle seat. I think she thought I would have preferred the aisle seat, but when she saw I wasn't taking it she moved him over. She was actually really nice and her little boy (almost 2) was really cute. Luckily, I've had lots of practice at tuning out children. For the flight back to AUS I read a bit and did some sudoku, but mostly slept. I arrived back in Australia and had to go through customs and I was really worried because I had some dried kiwi in my bag that I really really wanted to be able to take with me. Luckily, they let it through!


Last time I saw this sign was 9 months ago flying to Australia for the first time
As I walked out of customs there were two friendly faces waiting for me - Elise and Sherwantha (2 people from my church). I can't tell you how nice it is to get off a plane in a "foreign" (AUS isn't home, but it isn't new anymore either really) country to two people waiting for you. We chatted and such on the way to the car and when we got in Elise turned around and said, "Happy Easter!" and handed me a big Lindt, chocolate bunny. I was all smiles. Here I was, had just spent all of Easter in the airport alone being given a sweet (pun intended) Easter surprise by friends. We had a nice chat on the drive home. They dropped me off and I went inside to find an envelope from my Grandma Carolyn (Hope's Grandma) on my bed for me. I opened it up to find a very nice Easter card from her. Again, another unexpected, but loved Easter surprise. *The Easter surprises continued through to the next weekend when Joan (Nikki and Louise's mom) gave me a mini Lindt, chocolate bunny. He was almost too cute to eat!! Notice I said "almost"... I ate the chocolate in one sitting.*


I completely unpacked before getting in bed, I lay my head down on the pillow, and breathed an awfully deep breath as I replayed the past 10 days in my head. It all felt like a very vivid, way too real dream that I was ever so thankful for and blessed to have been able to experience. In a way it all happened way too fast, but in a way it felt like I was there with those people for months. If you ask me how New Zealand was I could either stand there and say nothing at all because in a way it has left me speechless OR I could give you the version that has enough information to fill 12 blogs and then some. If it was an option I would do it all over again from beginning to end. New Zealand is an amazingly, beautiful country that has a special place in my heart and no matter how much I write or how much I tell you... It's honestly something you need to experience for yourself because no picture, no word, and no photo could even come close to truly capturing its culture, its beauty, its adventure, and its spirit.